i'm really having doubts about myself;
whether or not i have been a good friend.
lately, i've been disappointed one too many times
cos i felt like i wasn't there for the friends who needed my support.
it's not exactly a nice feeling at all,
with my conscience bugging me at the back of my head.
just yesterday, my mood was put off by alot of uncleared things at work.
i dare to say that the cases being passed on to me were totally rubbish.
the patients' antics were crap.
10 patients under my care, but it seemed like forever trying to make them stop their nonsense.
just so you know, they never stopped.
things at home aren't nice and dandy either.
so maybe that's the reason why i was so irritable and moody to start off with.
it was nice to get a msg from a friend in the late afternoon asking whether i was
okay since i had not replied his msg since morning.
even offered to rush down just to check up on me.
seriously, i was touched.
but i didn't have the slightest mood to meet anyone at all.
today,
let's not even start about today.
disappointment. one after another.
fake a smile and face the world.