and today, i held a frail 5 month old abortus all by myself.
i could see the heart beating. so small, so delicate.
only God knew how i held back my emotions and just carried on with my job.
i wrapped that tiny body, even tied it with a little bow and settled
it in a nice basket to be transported to the mortuary.
i've always wondered why that senior consultant will always agree to carry
out abortions for teenage pregnancies.
it's not always we nurses see eye to eye with consultants, much less a senior one.
but today, i plucked up my courage and asked him why.
his answer was simple.
"if the girl doesn't want the baby yet i let it live, who's going to suffer?
personally i wouldn't want a child to suffer. i'd rather end it there and then."
his answer did have some truth in it which i choose to believe.
don't get me wrong. i do not support abortions but if you think long term,
then his answer is quite reasonable, righttt?