i've been going through mad cycles.
starts off with a sense of helplessness,
followed by a sort of epiphany/hope
that i can do something about it
and then something happens which makes
me doubt myself and my ability
and the cycle repeats itself.

but i believe all this will be over soon
and in 5 to 10 years time it might not even matter.

i hope i make it to the finishing line.
i want to make it there, and regardless of the outcome,
i just want to make sure that i don’t look back
and regret the way i did things.