just like how rajin gets her enormously random hunger pangs,
i get a sudden rush of mood declination.
and the effect lasted till now, as i type out this entry.

some people like the mom and the boyfriend would
attribute it to the sudden halt to my shopping frenzy in bangkok.
i'm feeling the hangover from the awesomeness of it all.
shoot me already.
having spent near to 1k for the trip,
here i am trying to make myself happy
by doing online shopping.
end of year bonus, please. come. soon.

the reason as to why yours truly is feeling down
is not the shopping.
okay, well maybe part thereof.

you know sometimes you feel the uncertainty
just hovering at the back of your head, or heart
and it makes you feel bothered by a gazillion things.
you want to get it all away but it stays rooted.

i know i'm better than this.
i know i'm able to pull through this.