it hurts so much when two of your dearest frens just cant get along. it hurts even more when you noe you cant do anything about it altho you've tried so hard.
and its like a smack on our faces that one of them walks away without even saying goodbye. our efforts of trying to look for the person and calling the person a gazillion times are fucking futile.
don't you dare give me the shitty things like "noone understands me. everyone is blaming me." cos its irritating the shit out of me (and the rest) already. we tried oh-so-many times to try and understand your situation and even took the time to find out what your problems were. but did you let us? hell no. u kept mum about the whole thing even tho we kept probing. fine, we're being assholes by probing into your life.
here's the thing. we care. we could've left you to fucking pick yourself up everytime you fall but we didn't. we tried our best to give you our support when you wanted to do something, even on impulse. we tried our best in giving you advise/encouragement when you needed them. we've tried our very best to become your friends. at the end of the day, i always end up asking myself whether we've really tried. you left us a feeling that we've not really bothered. this saddens me so much.
i take this as a present from you for my nineteenth birthday. thanks alot. i'll definitely remember this one.